Deliriants

  I took an interest in deliriants because it seemed like a good way to see the dark side of hallucinogens. I certainly got to see it. Although I never went above 475mg, I got more than my share of "fun" with deliriants. Here are my reports, short and difficult.


Note: Text written in [brackets] are side notes added at the time of compiling this blog entry.


1st Diphenhydramine trip: April 29, 2009

Took 100mg at 8:00, took another 100mg at 8:30, and then 50mg at 9:00 to top it all off at 250mg.

This shit hit me hard. It was, as my boyfriend [now husband], J, called it, a “warhellride.” I felt extremely sleepy.

The body high [more like body load] made me feel very heavy. When I stood, my legs felt like giant cement bricks, stronger than any dissociation I’d had before.

There was a big shadow on my wall that wiggled, the first time I saw it I almost flipped out from fear. It wasn't even ominous, it just looked like an owl.

I watched a poster diligently, encouraging some delirious visuals to occur. The lead singer of the band on the poster kept moving his lips a little here and there and smiling at me. The wall would slide around a little around it.

I drifted in and out of being awake. When I did this, I would hear distinctly familiar voices and get CEVs. Most or all of the hallucinations involved my college classmates. Also, I thought that J was talking to me on ventrilo... I was just rambling. Eventually it became too confusing, so I just logged off of the computer and went to my room.

I went to bed around 11 because I just couldn’t fight it anymore, I had been tired the entire week anyways.

I liked everything about this trip minus the sleepyness. I will look into if I can take caffeine with this to keep me awake. I want to try it again in about a month at a higher dose, 350mg maybe.

2nd DPH trip: May 29, 2009

Dosing:

11:00 pm 100mg

11:10 pm 100mg

11:20 pm 100mg

11:30 pm 100mg

11:40 pm 75mg

11:53 pm I was starting to feel that body load, feeling my hands moving slowly whilst typing. It hurt almost, I had to keep slow motions. I looked into the other room across from where I was, and I could see little tendrils and pieces of nothingness coming off of the details of the room, flickering almost.

12:10 am I decided to retreat back to my room. God I was such a weakling. I laid in bed with covers on top of me just looking around trying to remember that everything was okay. Feelings of doom slipped over me and I had a staring contest with another of my posters, one of Johnny Depp. I could never put that poster back on my wall after that night, it was so haunting. 

[I'm a pussy when it comes to DPH, can't cha tell? lol.]

12:25 am I was writhing on my bed, afraid to stop moving because when I started moving again, I had a jolt of pain go through me. I wrote on my trip report paper and it said "it suks to move."

Also: "i’m wearing a blanket but it doesn’t sry that"

Woke up the following day feeling worse than ever before. I had a horrible hangover which was exacerbated by food or anything more than water. I felt depressed, regretful, moody, and tired.

3rd Deliriant trip: Meclizine and Dimenhydrinate, June 7, 2009


[I tried Meclizine because I had read about its potential for abuse and I wanted to see if it would work for me. I know its not a typical deliriant kind of drug but it was worth a shot.]

10:33 pm I dosed 150mg Meclizine (Dramamine II)

11:11 pm No feelings whatsoever.

11:21 pm Stomach ache

11:36 pm I was just hanging out, feeling relaxed

12:30 am Felt very bored. Staggering 150mg dimenhydrinate every 30 mins.

1:00 am I don’t know if I should take more…

        ·      I feel the body high, no doubt

        ·      Minor hallucinations, things jumping, wavey

        ·      NO I WILL NOT DO MOAR.

1:12am I am tripping balls. Jumpy shit, waves, etc. This is really a great combination.

        ·      Body load - FFFFFFFFUUUUUUU

[From here on is quoted as it is written in my trip log]

118 I have moar fingers than I have use for

1122 my hand is like a piece of paper

·      also, hearing is WAT

1131 really lost wat

·      less drowsy, I’m moar crazy/delerium than anything else

·      talking and thinking is fucking out there.

138 yeaj about that

143 vivid audio hilorshinations

153 NO DRY MOUTH :D

Highlight the skyyyy

Just don’t touch me with that lamp and all of you will still be alive when you wake the fuck up

That wasn’t even a writing

With the people in sanfrancsisco, how do they hhold up their own kites and still reman a statue?

157Pops and crackles in my ear

201 :D

·      its easy on the heart too

205 hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe

231 Going to try to sleep.

12:15 pm (next day) Woke up, hangover is present, no dry mouth, my body feels heavy and my eyes feel like stones in my face. No emotional effect, unlike with DPH. Much more pleasant than DPH. Less visual hallucinations and more of a fucked up mindset. I wonder how much the Meclizine actually worked into this.

Deliriant Trip 4 : 500mg of Dimenhydrinate, July 2009

I don't have a written log of this trip. But I will tell you that DMH is a fun deliriant. I don't think it produces quite the same feeling of doom that DPH does. But the effects are very similar.