I Love You, MDMA.

The first time I did MDMA, it was by myself. I was doing it with J, but we were only doing it "together" by the meaning of he had his pill from the same batch, but he was across the country. I won't go into detail about how he got the pill. ;)

Here's what I managed to write:

July 27, 2009 

One Blue Puma taken at 8:00p.m., sublingual, chewed, swallowed.

SOooooo I just wanted to talk about al ot of things, for one I can’t believe I am the way that I am, I have never typed so fast before, I’m worried that my computer keyboard can’t take it, roling at school would be difficult

My neighbors are aliens and I just realized it

Im so in my head

Okay so they are like, they have this kid and he look like an alien and they moved in not long before I di that 2ce, and its like, I was so wrried about the aliens getting me because they can sense high seratonin and that’s how they get ppl, because those ppl are already seen as “crazy” because they have high seratonin levels and they can’t help it, like, that’s just how they are, so the aliens get em, and do stuff to them, like fu ck with them, I really think earth is just a little play site for aliens, maybe aliens created earth, maybe they put drugs here just soothe smart humans could be picked out by their high seratonin levels, and they pull the humans out, and they tweak with them, like take blood and run tests for a night, ten put them back,a nd no one believes them because they are already carzy kids, its like “w/e youre just making it up” but I will always believe those seratonin packed pppl who say that they’ve sene aliens, I’m luck y ihaven’t been picked up yet, I think I just stumb led into this world on purpose, I don’t mean to do drug, well syes I do, but wow id idn’t think I’d be this fun for them oh gooooooodddddd this roll is nice

So I was watching fifty pill today and I was watching the guy roll and he was talking about different strokes or however its called and it wsas sooo silly

I love J a lot, like a lot. Wow. A lot. I want to marry him. He’s great. I love him. He stands by me no matter what. He’s a great guy. I want him to be my husband. You only choose one. Ihe’s my one. I’m so happy that I met him. He’s godly.